Hello. The blog is weird to me. Beefing up my ideas or self. I understand my perspective is my perspective and others perspectives are their perspectives. So, this is where it is weird. In that, my way of thinking and the other ways of thinking. Which are ways of thinking. And what I do understand is that everyone is passionate about their way of thinking. So, where does this leave me? Well, on a long journey of self exploration and questioning. Indeed, I realized something about myself as of last night. So, I do love myself (not ego or vanity) but realized I (we) can always love ourselves more. I guess I came to a new understanding about myself. And its not a very good side of me, and a side of me that I choose not to analyze or see. However, a side of me none the same. And what I would call self destruction, I saw it first hand. And what I saw happening is myself creating an environment that would have had me out of sorts for a good week. Due to the fact that what I was creating was a whirlwind. With one decision, one choice. Which would have gave life to other chain reactions, lending itself to grief, pain, hurt; not being happy. And what I realized is I was creating the pain, because I wasn’t loving myself. And I saw myself creating this reality, directly yet indirectly; which would have hurt me. I was just unaware of such in the moment. Weird. When we make decisions it directly affects those around us and most often those we love the most. I’m not sure why I am sharing this except for maybe it might help someone else? We are human and make mistakes. No one is perfect and no one is ever going to be. But you know what, I am going to try to be my best. And by try, it does take work. Make the best of today! Your humble friend.
Archive for: October, 2011
What is understanding if not understood? What does understanding feel like? What does it smell like? How does it sound? What does it see? How can it….
That’s where I am! MANIC! Part of it. Well, reading Chapter Eight I do find quite a few more than obvious mistakes….ugh. Sorry, they will be addressed; part of the imperfect process. I hope you are well, until again.
So, i will post another chapter today. As with the previous chapter, there may be a few errors or areas i plan on expanding upon. The chapters you see still have to pass through a few hands before the starting gun. However…..:)